what do YOU think about?

Do you ever think about why stuff runs through your head.. today random people have pop'd in to my head.. do you ever wonder what is going through other peoples head like what were you thinking about before you were reading my blog what are you thinking about while your reading mine... that im a bad speller that i must be bored at work becuase i edit pictures what in the world is missy wanting to do in life.... what are you thinking about? when you look at engagement pictures do you try to picture your own do you wonder who you will spend your life with one day... wanna know what goes threw my head.... i think about what it would be like if i lost another person close to my heart and how lucky i am to have the friend and family i do i always think about how i wanna spend the week end with my mom or how much i miss my dad or how i wish my brother and sister lived in Utah or how i wish i would have moved to Cali before my brother passed away i also wonder if i will do a good job in school i wonder if my best friends will get engaged  this year i think Annie sariah and Natasha will all get engaged  i wonder why i could care less if i have a boy friend i wonder why back to December is always the song stuck in my head i wonder how my week end will go i wonder if my friends will ever call me if i wasn't the one who called them i wonder if i go to church if people will judge me i wonder if  sariah was home if we would be roomies again wonder if i should do what i want and start massage school or if i should listen to everyone else... i wonder if when im thinking about heavenly father if he is thinking about me i wonder when the radio comes on and it reminds me of my brother if he is there with me i wonder why i think the way i do and i always ponder how i want to me more up lifting and look at the positive in life and i always think of ways i can server others i wonder if there is a way i can make new friends that have the same standers as me but don;t judge me for my past i wonder if i could go back in time and change 2010 i wonder IF BE STRONG was my new years resolution becuase heavenly father knew it would be a rough year for me... i wonder if Annie and sariah were put in my life so i could appreciate a good friend i wonder if heavenly father whispers to robin and has her text me every time im feeling sad i wonder if court was put in my life to make me a strong person i wonder if Brandie went to Cali becuase heavenly father needed her there i wonder if my mom will ever find some one who loves her like she should be loved i wonder if colton will one day stand up to me and say sorry... i wonder if i have the courage to say sorry to people i hurt i wonder if v will have a baby i wonder  if me and kasia will ever be as close as we use to be i wonder if me and colter will ever be best friends again i wonder where i will live when im older i wonder if Treavor will go to Afghanistan i wonder if Robert will find a good girl i wonder if court will find a job in Hawaii or if she will come home i wonder if madi water will become a photographer and have a good paying job  this year  I WONDER EVERYTHING.... what do  you think about or wonder?

Word from the Wise

"Aim high, but do not aim so high that you totally miss the target. What really matters is that he will love you, that he will respect you, that he will honor you, that he will be absolutely true to you, that he will give you the freedom of expression and let you fly in the development of your own talents. He is not going to be perfect, but if he is kind and thoughtful, if he knows how to work and earn a living, if he is honest and full of faith, the chances are you will not go wrong, that you will be immensely happy."
— Gordon B. Hinckley

“ Men, take care not to make women weep, for God counts their tears” 

President Thomas S. Monson  

 Where there is light there is beauty

Lucky clover

1-19-2011

 Ugly duckling

Duck Pond Park

 

Daddy daughter date with my big brother.. I miss him soo much!<3

 Work with court she moved to Hawaii today :/

She has been one of my best friends for the last five months and i love  her soooo much she is the best!!

This was a couple years ago fishing with my old  best friend

 

COLTER PEACOCK

This is Makayla and Amy :)

 

SUMMER JAMS 

with Austin, Jasi, and Skyler :)

I have so many Boston hats but there just for BRANDON :)

Pictures:)

These days I haven't been sleeping

WORK IS SLOW

 

The GiRls:)

 

Hippie @ <3

 

The sky is my escape

 

i dont know what the future holds but i still see the light in my rear-view

I just like this one :)

So I'm moving on Letting go Holding on to tomorrow

=

When you truly care about someone you don't throw things in there face because they took a wrong path or act like your friend ship can be thrown away like its nothing at all... you don't get mad because they don't want to tell you something that they  know will just cause drama...... If you only knew how i felt about you.... i care about you alot and i relies i'm not good enough for you anymore but cutting me down and holding it over my head is not the way you treat a girl.... You say hurt full things sometimes and just think you can say what ever you want to me.. YOU don't under stand how much you mean to me and how everything you say effects me you use to treat me like i matter a lot & our friend shipment a lot to you... i know i went off track and made mistakes but i'm human i'm sorry....  you mean  soo much to me but this attitude that you have about me and  treat me like dirt and could careless to be my friends breaks my heart.... i don't know how many times you have thrown our friendship away and i have always asked for it back... i know i have done my part on being mean but it came to the last straw.. i'm sorry doesn't do it... because you don't even mean it....

I wanna tell you how i feel but that never seems to matter i'm not saying its all you but we fight so much we have both been in the wrong but you take it to extreme levels & it doesn't need to be that way :(

I know in a few month one of us will give in and talk to the other but regardless.. i miss you and I HATE THIS.. but im hurt and can't take it any more i understand better things come along and you move on... But letting go of you was something i was never willing to do.....

nothing makes me feel better then a good song!

You don't even have to try
it comes easy for you
the way you move is so appealing it could make me cry
go out drivin' with my friends
in Bobby's big old beat up car
I'm with a lot of people, then I wonder where you are

Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Ooh woo ooh

I don't wanna say goodbye
don't wanna walk ya to the door
I spent a little time with you, I want a little more

Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
ooh woo ooh

(male spoken part)

And baby really, I don't have to...
I don't have to go anywhere right now.
You want some more, you want some more a' this
Edie, whatever you want baby, just,
say it
aaaaaaaah, just say it

Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Good times, bad times gimme some of that
Ooh woo ooh

Now want those good, good ,good times
and not those bad, bad, bad times
I want those good, good, good ,good times
gimme some that..........

Fall 2010

well you know a lot has happen in the last two months.. things got a little crazy but i always have those friends that are gonna be there.. being sariah & court... im so happy i got this new job because i would have never been best friends with court and im so happy i am i think she is awesome and such a good friend helps me under stand dumb people and makes me laugh when i'm in tears and sariah oh man that girl has my back and supports me no matter what decisions i make i love and miss her soo much! My mom moved back to Cali to help her dad because he is very sick and needs some one there for him :( i miss her a lot. i had my up's and downs this month but for the most part i am doing okay. its getting close to the holidays and my mom is gone and it makes me sad because i have nothing to do. my brothers are here but they do there own thing i may help make thanksgiving dinner but im not really looking forward to it. and Christmas time is going to be hard because that is when Brandon had his first stroke and im just feeling alone.. i don't hang out with anyone really i just work all day and go home and miss my brother and my mom i hope i can start to think positive but the snow makes me super sad and not uplifting at all.... i hope the christmas spriit hits me and makes me happy and plus sariah is coming home for ten days in dec and I CAN NOT WAIT!!! i wish she was home right know to be my roomie :] well thats a little bit of life not so amazing but hey stuff can only get better after its all gone terribly wrong.